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27 August 2010 @ 07:11 am
It's just so ingrain in me. In everybody, really. But today I was just sitting on the couch thinking about life, and why I view myself less than amazing. Because why shouldn't I be amazing, I should not settle for mediocre. However. Everytime I look in  the mirror, there's something I see that I don't like or want to change and just be different.

You always hear everyone say "you are who you are, you're unique and amazing, love yourself" when in reality, its alot harder to do so. Where does insecutiry come from though? From your ownself? Or from others and the comments they unintentionally/intentionally make that subconsciously make you change the way you think about yourself?

Because sometimes when I look at myself in the mirror, I like what I see. I don't see all the faults that everyone else sees. But when I get comments about my appearance or something to the extent, I just can't help obsessing over it.

What's so great about looking perfect anyway. Life would be piss boring if everyone were cookie cutter good looking clones of each other. Faults build a person's character. And how will my life change if I really were to change the way I look? My nose may be a little crooked, but how will my life change so amazingly if it wasn't? it really that great, is it really? Aren't I pretty happy as it is?

My aim in life now going forth is to be happy with who I am. No matter how I look. To look what I consider my best, and even if anyone says otherwise, just to be happy with who I am. Insecurity starts with someone from the outside, a comment or even a picture or message in a magazine, but it doesn't have to change how I feel about myself.

Having more confidence will go a long way. You just have to believe in yourself, Von.
welcome to the antverseant_power on August 28th, 2010 04:14 pm (UTC)
I think everyone feels like that a lot of the time though. Even Arashi feel like they're not good enough, and they're Arashi, right. Personally, I blame my mother. Even for your insecurity, I blame my mother. XP

But really, I think everyone has things they don't like about themselves, you just have to focus on what you DO like, I think that's where confidence comes from.